Mothers Day

Mothers Day


I sit in think back to that phone call in the middle of the night, that I was needed at the hospital on January 7th 1991. By the time I got there she was already gone to heaven.  Today I miss my mother. This is the day I get to go decorate her grave because decoration day at the cemetery is mother’s day.  If you have your mother call her, love her forgive the mistakes because people are sometimes, the best parents that they can be with the tools and knowledge they are given.


I reflect on my children. The two in heaven that I miscarried, the four I have walking this earth making mistakes on the journey of life.


My daughter latisha on June 1st 2016 will have been clean for a year from her ice/meth addiction.  That means it has been a year since I took her out in the country side and talked with her because I had had enough and was not sure I would be here much longer. It has been a year since the girls laken, lacin and Gracen left my home.

Kyle is trying to find the best way to be a weekend father when he is allowed to be and dealing with not waking up to his children.

Kevin the son born not being able to hear, with a cyst on his brain and not speaking till five years old the one diagnosed retarded which is a word I hate is finishing up his 3rd semester in college with As and Bs just to prove sometimes the medical profession is wrong sometimes , and god is a better all-knowing person. He speaks and can hear.

Caleb my wild child is enrolled in college and will start in August. I am so proud of him.

And the marriage that I have taken a lot of public and private opinions about.  I finally at 47 have peace in my life it is sad that it took from age 13 till now for me to figure out , that I need to take care of me. It has been a year since my friend Debra Ellig was diagnosed with lung cancer and July it will be a year since heaven gained a new angel.


Kathy Conley you are very special in my life have a Happy Mother’s day.


I am blessed to be alive and blessed with special people in my life. Have an awesome Mothers Day everyone.

About tabethabeautyreviews

About me well I have recently been pondering what I have on my page is being educated about me who I am. My friends are saying here comes the weird Psychology degree stuff. Well some know my past and some don’t, I have always heard don’t put your mistakes (trash out) for all to see. I have decided if its not out for all to see then how is the younger generation going to learn from the older generations mistakes. First I started running away at 14 to get out of a bad home life was this the smartest thing I have ever done, no what did I learn a many lessons in life , what jobs I wanted and did not want is the biggest one for sure to the guy at the paper tiger lounge in Denver, I am so sorry that I risked your business as a Dum teenage kid. To Kay and Myron Nichols from Aurora thanks for taking in a teenager and getting her out of employment that she had no business in. Thanks Kay for trying to teach that kid that she wasn’t ready in life to be a wife and mother and thanks Myron for eating that no bake jello pie that I messed up so bad on. Second to you young bloggers that read my blog to help me out, I was a teenage high school drop out that got pregnant at 16 to get out of a bad home and ended up jumping from the frying pan into the fire. Remember this no matter what mistakes you have made its never to late to start over. I divorced at age 18 and just kept jumping from one bad marriage to another. It took me till my twenties to get that high school diploma, then I walked into Carl Albert state college and enrolled and with 4 kids and a job I now have an associates from Carl Albert state college in sociology/Psychology and a bachelors in psychology with an emphasis in mental health and I have a master’s of science in psychology from the University of Phoenix. I maintained above at least a 3.27 at all the colleges while raising 4 kids and holding a job down. So it is never too late to change your life. The relationship Mistakes first to the professor at NSU that made it a point to tell me that I didn’t have a big red sign on my back that says if you’re a woman beater come my way that it was because I didn’t stay single long enough that I just kept marrying the same man he just had a different face. Thank you I have remained single now and haven’t dated for 5 years and I know see that you are correct. To Craig the guy that came around since I was 14 until I was 30 I finally grew up to bad that you got tired of waiting I am glad that you finally have your soul mate. Now at 45 am looking at changing my career direction scary but all will work out. Second no friends and co-workers I haven’t went crazy from the stress. I just decided that dealing with the fact that I am getting older and showing it is ok. I still intend to get old gracefully and become that girly, girl. This is about me in all my trash being out there

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