Life has a way of hitting you in the face and waking you up in a huge way. I am 46 way too young to die. To be told you are actively dying a slow death is horrifying. It makes you stop and think . But when you stop and think just for a second that death would be a way to finally get peace it is time for changes.
First my children
Latisha my 29 year old she is a recovering meth addict that has palsy so bad she cant even touch her children with her whole hands, she has no front teeth and she looks very old. My heart aches, My sister thinks her boyfriend is giving her meth that she is not in recovery because he wants her child and he is actually killing her.
Kyle my 28 year old is going through a divorce and is making it so far . I am proud of him for being a great father and loving his children
Kevin my 20 year old has a lot of problems but is working through them and is attending Carl Alert state college I am so proud of him.
Caleb my 19 year old he is smoking pot and living in a diesel with his dad I worry about him also he needs to straighten up and make a great life.
I want my children to get out and make a descent life get away from the people that want you to fail and if they are currently helping you buy drugs or provides them for you they want you to fail. It is time you all take care of yourself and your children. That is not my job anymore you are grown and I am not physically able to do so anymore.
My life I work and I am currently trying for a promotion that now I will not get because of my health issues. For fun I mess with romance scammers online the military scammers I unfriend. the young scammers I mess with these are young overseas men that think American women wants younger men it is fun. I do not intend to send money or pick up any packages for any man. LOL ever. I really intend to get a life because if this is my fun I obviously do not have a life.
I have met a young online friend that has taught me a lot about life lessons , being positive and grabbing life by the tail he will make some young Indian woman a great husband. Nitin is a very special man. He is my morning coffee buddy. To Nitin find that great love in your life spend time nourishing ad taking care of that love. Grab life by the tail my friend always live it , enjoy it while you are young. Think of me while you are living it my friend.
Grab ahold of life catch it while you can it is way too short to be wasted. To everyone that I have ever told you that you are special to me, I love you, and I care about you know I did then and I still do.